This is the hardest blog I have had to write so far. As in every journey, it is not always plain sailing, and the last couple of months have been anything but. I haven’t been writing, because I was not sure what to write, or indeed how to write it, and perhaps that is the very time I should have been writing!
Our 13 year old daughter has been ill for the last couple of months (I won’t go into any more detail than that), and this has caused immense stress and worry for all of us, including her. I have had to stop work to be with her, and I feel like my whole life has been put into a blender, and is having trouble getting back out again.
So what do I do – eat!!! After all the months of losing weight, as soon as something comes along to test me, I fall apart and revert to my old ways! It’s as if I’ve learnt nothing over the last nine months.
Luckily, and through pure good luck, I have not put too much weight on. I’m still over the six stone lost mark (and therefore in India!!), but have been putting weight on, and then taking a couple of pounds off here and there, so have stabilised to a certain extent. Which is good, I know, and better than I would have done before Practically Slim came along, but it certainly isn’t what I want to be doing.
The worry and stress, teamed up with not working and sitting around the house doing not a lot, make me want to eat everything in sight, and at the moment I can’t seem to stop it. Every morning I start with good intentions, but by lunchtime those good intentions have got up and left. I’m in this rut that I can’t get out of.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m proud of what I have done so far, incredibly proud, and I know I will come out of this, but it doesn’t help with the way I am feeling at the moment.
How do you break out of the cycle of comfort eating?